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Sunday, October 25, 2009

I cut myself, but not because I hate my life...why do people think that?

I cut myself, but not because I hate my life...why do people think that?
cut myself for three (3) reasons.
1) Blood clots, I wanted to see how long it takes
2) Cutting releases endorphins, which relives pain, I wanted to see if that works
3) I wanted to see if I can, I can鈥檛 do it deep, only enough to bleed a little

Why do people think that "You cut yourself, so you must hate your life"...thing, it is SO annoying
I cut myself like twice...not like ever day, im-so-emo-like all the time...and I dont hate my life. That is so stupid...I have a great life.
Answer:
Because most people do not need to deliberately cut themselves as they do not feel the need to cause themselves pain.

To observe how a person reacts to cutting, bleeding, and the release of endorphins, most people will observe after accidentally injuring themselves.

To deliberately hurt yourself is viewed as a emotional response to something in your personal experience that is/was too painful for your mind to understand and the way to release the pain is to cut yourself.

If, as you write, you are doing it purely as a scientific experiment, then you have realized that the most you have gotten out of it is pain, scarring, and the appearence of a mental illness. Was it worth it?
im the opposite i do hate my life and i cut myself.. bt mostly people think that BC thats y most ppl cut themselves.
bc this is a stupid question get a life
endorphins are released to help relieve the pain that you caused yourself with the cut. People that think this is abnormal are actually the normal ones here. sorry, you probably arent going to get a lot of support here.
They probably think you hate your life because you are allowing yourself to be infested with diseases just by simply exposing a wound to the open air. In case you don't know there are billions of bacteria in the air. Allowing them to enter your bloodstream can lead to a staphlococcus aureus infection. Also staphlococcus epidermia can cause an infection. This can lead to things like gang green. While it is not 100% likely it is entirely possible that cutting yourself could lead to a massive infection.
well ppl probably think that b/c it's not i guess "normal" for ppl to cut themselves...but do u really just cut urself for experimentation?? I mean to see how long ur blood clots and just to bleed?? I know that some ppl use it as a coping technique to suppress all the stress that is surrounding their lives but if u have a great life, I wouldn't take cutting as if it was no biggy.because it leaves scars on u that will stay there 4 ever.
Well SOME people are just bias or have a stereotype. They judge people by there actions. Like you say "you cut yourself" so people will say your emo because thats what emos usually do.

Just tell those people to shut it because they don't know anything about your life.

And explain that you have a great life, and just tell them the reasons you cut yourself.
for many people if they see sum one cut themself its cuz they are upset and cant handle they're problem anyother way....and usually when they cant handle they're life they get deeper and deeper till they die.blame suicidle people for why others think that.
does cutting ur self feel good?????
i have cut my self for the past 4 going on 5 yrs im almost 17 and i have had alot go on in my life but dont really confront it the way i ahould and i go crazy and get mad at myself..ur telling urself u cut urself for those three reasons which prolly arent true because u prolly have alot of unsolved issues in ur subconcious mind that arent resolved and u dont know how to help yourself cutting yourself isnt a game its not cool it dosent only go along with those dumbass brand names like emo goth watever i hate brand names for people u are who u are but newys i had stopped cutting off and on and i stopped for a really long time and i wus proud of myself and recently i did it again and it disappointed me so bad that i jus broke down but u need to becareful and get help or help urself.
k but u should have not done tht for some stupid experment
i think you do have a problem, you surly need a hobby.
When did you become a science experiment? Do you realize you can get an infection from what you're doing?

If you accidentally nick an artery you could bleed out.

People who cut themselves do it for a release from some form of pain or anxiety in their lives and it's something they think they can control.

If your doing this for "fun", look up the word in the dictionary and read the definition.

If you think there is nothing wrong with what you're doing, please get the help you need. The fact you are writing about what you are doing is a cry for help.
OMG. Quit doing this to yourself. Mostly people cut themselves because they hate their life. I agree with you do have a great life! Don't be a science experiment. Its not worth the hassle. I love you! I don't want to see you hurt. And we've had this talk before at walmart.-lol- good times. And I know exactly what you were saying then... So please quit!
Please get help...you maybe just experimenting but one day you will go to far and could lose your life or even worse you could do permenant damage to to yourself, much more than living with just scars. Leave the expieriments to scientists or healhcare professionals. Better yet instead of harming yourself why not put that energy into studying to become a scientist or a reasearcher? you will find your answers there..Listen to Rebecca, Stop.
Just dont show them %26 wear a wristband
Because thats how self-mutilation is publicized, in tv, in movies, magazines, books, and even music. Society lives inside one tiny little box or normality and if there is a idea that doesn't fit in there box of normality, then you are the abnormal one. It doesn't matter what people think because, you know why your doing it. They don't need to know "hey I'm conducting an experiment, I'm not crazy" It's none of there business but until society evolves into some form of acception, anyone that isn't how they want you to be gets talked about. Whether you are fat, your on drugs, your anorexic, you hurt yourself, you have weird hobbies...it doesn't matter what it is. I know exactly about this. I watched a self-mutilation epidemic happen at my school. Don't take the cutting any farther than your experiements, it's an addiction. I have cut since I was 9 and I'm 16 now. So I know my stuff on that. Whatever you do, don't take anyones sh*t and never let them bring you down. Cutting isn't worth it. Stop while your ahead.
You annoy me. And I think you're in denial.

Yeah, I guess you could call those experiments. I do things like that all the time, sometimes out of curiosity (It's mostly cutting). But, in general, there's a certain carelessness and desperation needed to even consider doing those things. Maybe you're searching for something. Perhaps you feel a certain boredom that's actually a symptom of a deeper panic and emptiness that you're trying to escape from.

Or maybe you're just full of ****.

Whatever the case, just thought I'd say something, due to much experience with just about everything you mentioned. The only thing I haven't done yet, is that electrocuting thing. Of course...it sounds interesting. Potential for death? All the better, right?
u asked already but hey I'll say it again.

WARNING;;
Before you make that first cut, remember--
You will find the blood and pain release addictive.
Even though you think you can make a few tiny cuts that aren't deep and will heal easily--



They will get deeper.
They will scar.
They will take sometimes months to heal.
And years for the scars to fade.
If you think you can limit the cutting to one area of your body think again.
It will spread when you run out of skin.
Be prepared to withdraw from others and live in a constant state of shame.
Even if you are the most honest person ever to live--
You will find yourself lying to the people you love.
You will jerk back from your friends when they touch you as if their hands were dipped in poison.
You will be terrified that they will feel something under the cloth of your shirt or because it just plain hurts so much to be touched.
Be prepared to get so out of control you fear your next cut because you don't know how bad it will be.
Just wait for 10 cuts to turn into 100.
Be prepared for your entire life to revolve around thinking about cutting--
Cutting and covering up cutting.
And just wait till that first time you cut "too deep."
And you freak out because the blood won't stop...
And you are gasping...
And you feel yourself shaking all over.
You are having a panic attack and you are terrified but you can`t tell anyone.
So you sit there alone...
Praying it will be okay--
Swearing you'll never let it go this far again...
But you will, and further.
Don't worry, you will learn how to take care of your cuts so that you can go deeper and deeper and avoid the ER.
And the better you get at treating your cuts,
The deeper they get.
You will lie to yourself and justify it when you find youself spending 20, 30, or 50 dollars every time you go the pharmacy.
You will feel the flutter of your heartbeat everytime you go to the counter to ring up your order.
Butterfly strips--
3 or 4 different kinds of dressings...
Betadine...
Antibiotic cream...
Medical tape...
Scar reducers...
You will tap your foot impatiently hoping the line will just move and noone will stare at you or wonder why you need all these things.
And at the same time secretly hope someone will notice--
Someone who is standing in line with an armful of the same supplies.
Someone who understands--
But of course that never happens.
Medical supplies won't be the only thing you spend all your money on.
Be prepared to buy a new wardrobe--
Longsleeve shirts in summer colors, bracelets, wristbands, boots...
The list goes on and on.
You will start looking at everyone in a different way.
Scanning their bodies for any signs of SI.
Just hoping that you might meet someone like you so you don't feel so terribly alone.
You wont even think about it,
As your eyes scan their wrists arms.
Hoping, just hoping they will be like you.
But they are not.
You will see their clean arms and feel terribly ashamed and alone.
You will start doing a lot of things alone.
You will always have to wash your laundry in private so no one sees the blood stains on your clothes and towels.
You will always be cleaning up the blood.
Scrubbing your bathroom floor.
Wiping the blood off your keyboard.
You won't be able to make it through a day without cutting.
Next thing you know you are in a public bathroom somewhere breaking open a scab with a sewing needle that you keep in your wallet for emergencies.
When you get really desperate,
Anything will be a cutting tool...
Scissors...a car key...a needle...a paperclip...even a pen.
Doesn't matter what it is if you need to cut bad enough you will find something.
Say goodbye to things you took for granted.
Like wearing shorts or sandals...pedicures...sleevele... tops.
A normal summer day at the beach or in a swimming pool will become a far off memory for you.
Get ready to itch.
Because you will itch and itch.
So much you will look like you have fleas or a skin disease.
You will become an expert on your body as you destroy it carefully.
You will dream about cutting.
You will dream about being exposed.
It will haunt you day and night and take over your life.
You will wish you never made that first cut because while you absolutely hate cutting--
At the same time you love it and can not live without
Yea.. I bet. I know someone who says that too.
But he lies abouut everything else so why not that too?

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